How I learn about what lies inside
This is a very simple lesson I created many years ago to help others find some real meaning to stuff lying inside on those days where everything seem clouded.
When I would meet someone who wanted to know who they really were on the inside I would put to test something that you can do every day of the week and twice a day even. Not only about yourself but others you find conflict in. Perhaps even a situation.
It doesn’t take practice and you can’t cheat doing it. Some may think they have cheated at it but it is essentially impossible because the thoughts come from inside you. It’s also a good way of taking sad or angry thoughts and making them pleasant.
Write on a sheet of paper you name spelled out with a space between the letters.
L a d y J
Then for each letter write the first word that comes to your mind when you say the letter.
Write that word downwards.
L A D Y J
I S A E O
T K Y S Y
T I T O
L N E U
E G R S
D
A
Y
Do the same for each letter in the word you are working on it's meaning inside.
Doesn’t matter how long the name or word subject is, this part is done the same.
I start on the out side rows and circle the first two on each side.
Mine here is “Little Joyous”
This is your protective outer shell. What it is safe to show others.
Then the next two in I circle and now I find “asking yesterday”.
Look at each one as you would peeling the layers off of something.
My core here is “day” or as I would perceive it as perhaps “what I think today or what I’m doing today” which makes much sense to me as I would read it’s message out as.
I’m a “little joyous” because I’ve been questioning myself on many things that have to do with my writings and the talk zone “asking yesterday” and today “day” I have come to a conclusion that I feel good about.
I have made the choice to close the web sites for the other talk zones and just relax here one on one as I did in the beginning. I hope that some of you who come will continue to write me and share what they are discovering about themselves.
As the memories start coming in your dreams I've developed my own style of deciding which are true memories and which where dreams that I could work with to change their value.
We all have those moments when the dreams become so overwhelming and we start to question whether or not they all could be real things that happened to us in the past.
Don't be afraid to walk through this door. It is on the other side that you will find most of your answers. If at some point you try to go through the door and it slams shut to soon, or when it comes to dreams you wake up before you see what is there, don't let it discourage you any. The mind we have is a wonderful thing that took many bad memories of events and hid them away in a safe place until the time when we are strong enough to face them.
For myself I always had the pictures of my life. What was safely put away was the feelings of the moment. It took me a long time to combine them. Some feelings are still safely hidden I think or perhaps I'm just old enough and have learned enough that they lost their strength in the process.
The shortest explaination to start with for me was how to tell a real event or flashback from a dream or imagined event. Imagined events are sometimes caused by seperated feelings of a real event that we have no pitures linked to. I had plenty to sort through.
A real event never changes. In time more of the picture was revealed but the core never changed one bit. As apposed to perceived events that act out in different places or times. People change who are doing it. This is not to be confused with a blank picture of someones' face in a real event that later takes on clarity.
Any questions that arise don't hesitate to write me and ask for more of what I mean by that. I'm not sure how else to write it out here for you.
For me I always had snap shot photo memory or short clips of events. Void of the feelings later in my life when things would trigger what professionals called 'inapropiate' feelings I started the search to find their origin. After much reading and therapy I still had no clue to some of them. Slowly over time I made the educated guess you will find yourself doing at this point.
I could not change the real events that happened in my life. Yet through my dreams, day or night, I could change over time not only their effect on my feelings floating around inside, I learned to turn them completely around until the day that I won over them. That was an all empowering time for me. Events I can not change. The feelings I can because they are seperate from the event. Even the core ones. What a remarkable discovery.